I can’t keep track of how many times I’ve tried to be my best… Lately I’ve been in a ‘whiney’ mood so I sincerely apologize to anyone that might feel tired about dealing with this ‘emoness’, but I think the person I need to apologize the most is to myself…
I’m the type of person that doesn’t like to let anyone down… I’m the type of person that chooses to suffer so anyone else don’t, the type of person that doesn’t care to divide his lunch in two if you don’t have anything to eat or even give you his entire lunch… (you can always forget you didn’t eat when you spend time with a friend…) but sometimes I forget, I forget what I’d like to remember… not everyone is like that.
I don’t ask for anything in return, just a real and sincere friendship, a warm hug or even a real smile that shows you’re happy to see me… because I’ll always be happy to see you…
The way I am makes it easy for others to hurt me or take advantage of me, I’ve been realizing this the hard way… Some people confuses a friend with a personal assistent or a maid… some people just care about themselves and if you already helped them, they don’t care if you’ve eaten or not, if you’ve cried or not… you’re expendable and they know you’re naive enough to fall for it again when they say ” I need you”…
I decided I have to do something about this… and I won’t beg for it anymore.
